Piling Glory upon Glory?

It's a dream come true for someone to get everything he wished for: Fame, Power, Money. But these things come with a price. In retrospect, it has been a "glorious year" for one. He has the positions, the leadership and the name. But is it worth it with what has transpired throughout his term?

He is known to be a responsible one. That's a trademark, they said. But in the span of one year, things seem to have changed. No longer is he that way. Gone is the man they can count on; in his place stands a shattered shadow of a former self. 

He has done everything he can, but nothing is going right. What legacy is there left for him to leave? He seems to have led his people back to hell instead of getting out of it. 

With what energy he has left, let's see if he can rise from the abyss.

/no1!

Not Superman

As much as I can, I try to balance my Academics with my extra-curriculars. Though irregular, I do Cases for Doc M and advance in Clinical Subjects. On top of that I'm the leader of two research groups (Biochem, FCM), and I'm part of the trans groups for the previous two mentioned subjects, being the leader for FCM trans too. Besides all these, I have extra-curricular work as well. 

I find it cool that I manage to keep myself busy, sane and productive all at the same time while learning, doing service to others and enjoying life. However, things do go wrong, as they sometimes will. You see, too much can kill, as they say.

I know that I can't do everything and fix every mistake that happens. I will be bound to commit errors that would affect many things. However, I would still take full responsibility for whatever happens. Gaun talaga eh. Ganun yung tama, you can't escape your problems, so be part of the solution instead.

I'm not Superman. I can't speed through the day finishing everything in time for dinner. After all, I'm only human. I guess that's why I prefer to be the Dark Knight instead, capable of superhuman feats yet susceptible to succumb to his human side. I see myself in him more than in the Man of Steel.

Maybe I just need to take things slow, and focus on each task one at a time. Maybe I should also not be too shy to ask for help. Batman, though thinking of himself as a solo hero, has family and friends around him... and so do I. :)

Upon realizing all these, I pondered and said to myself, "What a beautiful life I live in". Many problems, many trials, probably may succeed in breaking me sometimes, yet each time, never failing to make me stronger than ever.   

Just my 2 cents!

/no1! 

Endure, because that's the point.

"Endure, Master Wayne. Take it. They'll hate you for it, but that's the point of Batman, he can be the outcast. He can make the choice that no one else can make, the right choice."

When we do something right, it is either people praise you, or they won't say anything. It is only when something is wrong that they suddenly all become noisy. I admit, that's true and I'm guilty of that. It's because we are all humans and we always take note the mistakes of others in comparison to our own.

My brod once said "People will always have something to say.". It's true. No matter what you say or do, be it none of their business, people will always have something to say. My blog is an example, I guess, politics-wise. 

I don't know. I feel down. I know I haven't done anything wrong but as I posted a while back, some people are always bound to be dragged into issues unknowingly and unwillingly. Kumbaga, may mga nadadamay. That's life. You can't always expect good things; you can't always escape pain. That's not the only thing, though. Many issues in the world, you see. 

But will that stop us, stop me, from doing what has to be done? Alam ko yung tamang gawain eh. Dapat bang ako'y bumigay na lang? Hayaan na't sige, gawin na rin ang ginagawa ng karamihan. If you can't beat them, join them? NOPE.

I'd rather be an outcast. Just because something went wrong, is that enough to resort to underhand tactics and kapit sa patalim style? I don't think so. It doesn't mean na, "wala eh, may mali na, hayaan na naten. Mali na ako, sige, tanggapin ko na lang wala na akong gagawin na solution.". Hell, WE are supposed to find SOLUTIONS to the problem. If we can't find a solution, we are merely being part of the problem.

And that's the thing: So many problems lately. I know the solution but I'm holding back because I don't want to hurt anyone. Well, unfortunately, I realized that doing that would hurt more, actually. It's time to move out of the comfort zone. Time for me to endure what others would say when I present the solutions. 

Endure, because that's the point: IF YOU CAN bring change and do what's right, then no matter what they say, it's always up to you to make the right choice, because only YOU CAN.

And oh, yes, I'm Batman.

Just my 2 cents!
/no1! 

The consequences of our actions

Since yesterday I was already worried about this. I had some reassurance that it was not about us but in general, pinpointing to everyone. However, this morning I had a different point of view from another person regarding this. -_-

You see, it is quite sad that some people would be dragged into an issue just because of affiliations or of friends. It is very disappointing that those who are quiet and minding their own business are suddenly put in the spotlight for something they had no idea of nor had no hand in... Just because of what others might have done :|

I solve cases for the fact that I get to advance in Pathology, Pharmacology and Medicine, given my irregular status now that I have lots of free time so I'm devoting it to studies. If I'm implicated in this then what sense would there be in solving the cases knowing that Doc might not trust me anymore? Knowing that doc might tell me that it is disappointing that I broke a promise when I did not?

I sound guilty, but I am not. The fact of the matter is that I promised not to teach anyone nor spoonfeed regarding the cases. Allegedly there is a passing of "knowledge" between different sections. And I am not included here but then of course, I might be implicated because I have brods and sisses among the freshies. Not that doc will jump into conclusions or that its my brods and sisses' faults, but then, I'm just paranoid, I guess. Ayoko masira trust ni doc saken :( that is why I kept my promise not to share answers to anyone.

Even with my OWN brods and sisses I did not share the answer. In our fraternity and sorority, we were taught not to go the easy way but to earn everything with sweat, blood and tears. So, you can all imagine the pain now, that is, some of those who are innocent might be implicated. Damay-damay ang lahat.

That is why we were all taught, starting at home, that whatever we do, we should stop and think before acting, because our actions would have consequences, be it good, or bad. Sometimes, we rush forward and regret it in the end.  Regrets come last, in the end, when everything has occurred. Sometimes, we just have to stop and think before acting. We would hurt less people this way, do less/no harm at all.

There is nothing else I can do. All I can do is just to still continue upholding Integrity and being honest. I'll just keep doing the good that I'm doing, like doc told me to...

Just my 2 cents!

/no1!

Adjustment

Adaptation is the key to survival. As a biologist, I should know this by heart, because the fittest and the strongest ones would withstand the forces of Nature trying to wipe them out from the face of the Earth.

Adjustment is like adaptation. You either fit in or you conk out. Adjustment can be akin to trying to move on after a devastating crisis. It may be positive or negative.

Sometimes, people adjust negatively. They tend to shut themselves in. They tend to let their hearts harden and eventually turn them in to a bitter shadow of their former selves. And then, with that, their world slowly shatters...

Why do we adjust negatively? Because we have fear. Fear is something we should be thankful of. Without fear, we can never become stronger. Fear is good but we should not let it consume us; instead we should face it and overcome it. We should become fear itself...

...or maybe, we should adjust positively. There are endless possibilities in every single thing in this world. They usually are triggered at the right moment when we least expect it. Things do happen for a reason. Maybe, if we all took one step at a time and see things in a different light... things will become better. Also, as the cliche saying goes, Time heals everything.

Adjusting is hard. We all hate change, because change is the only permanent thing in this world. Change can be an unforseen delay in Medical School, an opportunity lost because of things one fought for, a lost love, a lost friendship or even things as simple as being left behind and feeling alone. 

But change is good. Change is, more often than not, for the better. In a fast paced world today, a second differs significantly greater from the last or the next. One minute you feel great, the next, you suddenly feel alone.

But that's the point - you adapt. you adjust. The rate of change today grows exponentially. And it is yourself that you pull down, when you decide never to adapt or to just adjust negatively. Never let yourself be caught in the web. You are stronger than that. 

Adjust well, and you will see how bright things actually are. Adjust well, and you will see things differently, for there is always a silver tint on the clouds of doubt.

Just my 2 cents!

/no1! 

2013-A

This was exactly one year ago.

The first exam results came; I felt elated. And then when the next results were shown, I felt down. I began to wonder whether it was going to be an unending cycle of ups and downs here in Med School. I always wanted it to be full of ups, no downs.

It was after my first year in Medicine when I realized and confirmed that indeed, life is a wheel. Sometimes you're on top, then suddenly you'll find yourself way below. It isn't a cruel cycle; it is a fact of life that we have to live and deal with. I'm irreg now, but that doesn't mean I have to give up, does it? Fate can be cruel, but it's all up to one to adjust and deal with it.

It is indeed quite difficult to adjust to changes. One month in, and you'll begin to thank your classmates for the little things they do for you, be it simple or grand. You have your classmates who are experiencing what you are going through. You have your parents, your family, who will support you no matter what (kahit minsan, hindi mo ramdam). You have your brods and sisses, who share your joys and tears, through thick and thin, who'll never leave your side when you need them the most.

They always say that the beginning is always the hardest. But it doesn't mean that you'll just have to give up just because you think you can't make it through. Perseverance is the key. Add that to Faith and you'll find yourselves breezing through the hardships.

Remember that we are all in this together. Walang iwanan.

 /no1!

Write Stuff

It's been a long while since I updated my blog. Anyway, I would not be ranting about anything politically related in this post! Let's just say this is more of a personal one. So, some small stuff first:

The start of the second semester has truly been eventful. I am thankful that my second shifting grades were quite good, and that at least I now have assurance that I can do it! Though, a problem is that the start of the third shifting is not really as good though, mejo I know I can do event better pa, so it means during this Christmas break I MUST indeed study well to prepare for the last 2 shiftings for my First Year. After this, summer break na! And then, second year na.. Second year in Medical School. For that I must do my best. Oh, wait, not only for myself but for everyone else. I promised to help those na mas nangangailangan pa saken, and I vow to fulfill that promise. Kapit tayo, mga kaibigan!

Oh yeah, I'm now a member of MARSF as well. I never regretted this decision of mine and will never do so. Proud to be part of a close knit family! Also, I'm damn proud of my batchmates. Haha! These sisters of mine never fail to make me smile everyday :) Mahal ko kayo batchmates! 

Moving on..

I like poetry. Oh, and whenever creativity hits me with a power over 9000, I write, be it a poem or a blog entry. My poetry is reserved for a special someone. Because I am not as artistic as most of my friends, I guess poetry is my way of expressing, like drawing is to an artist. I never really just pick out the words to rhyme; what happens is they just hit me in the head and I keep repeating it to myself until I find some pen and paper to write them down.

I guess most people think that poetry is easy to do so. Basta hanap ka lang ng nagrrhyme na words ok na yun. However, it is not that simple. In a stanza or two you gotta give the gist of what you really mean. Poetry is special, in a way that it somehow never really seems to talk "clearly" but when you read it carefully, you get the message in a flash. 

I admit; it is actually difficult. Sometimes, when I write a poem, I think it is already quite good, but after re-reading it, I tear the paper to pieces and start anew. :| yeah I know, perfectionist? I am not really a perfectionist but of course I do my best job in everything I do. Di naman kasi pwede basta-basta ka lang magsusulat, di ba? But hey, the reward comes when one simple poem can actually change the course of things. I don't know, it has happened before to me. It is weird, yes, but kinda cool, actually.

For now, I'll leave y'all with a line. This is my next work, I guess. Still building from scratch..

"The morning sun greeted me; I awoke with a start

I dreamed of you, and longing ached my heart"

Haha. Emo? Nope. Di pa nga tapos di ba? haha!

Just my 2 cents!

/no1

Of touching someone's heart and random thoughts

• When you never try, you'll never know. This line keeps on haunting me, to tell you the truth. I guess sometimes you can never escape your responsibility in letting her know how you truly feel. Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet. The question is, when am I biting the bullet? The best time to do anything is always now, but sometimes I prefer to do things my own way. I guess that's both my flaw and blessing, then. A radical stand and at the same time, stubbornness.

• When you lose something you can't replace.. damn. You'll never realize this until you have lost that particular something. But then comes acceptance and joy for what was lost.. because, most likely, what was lost has found happiness elsewhere.

• I'd rather live a thousand years of pain with you than a day of filled with hollow joy because that's how precious you are. It's too premature for anything right now, but we could try, couldn't we? Though, I can wait.

• I don't go straight to the point when it comes to you. How I feel about you, I break it up into little pieces, like a puzzle, and bit by bit I build it up for you to see. Slow, but I think it's worth it, because you are worth the time.

Random thoughts at 3:15am. Yesterday's feels flowed in once again. I haven't really written stuff like this, and I'm surprised at what I'm doing. Haha, it's probably.. i don't know. Let's see the answer in a few days..

/no1

So where were we...?

Wow, I haven't posted for quite a while. So where were we?

- Thank you Lord. PLM. :) already enrolled.. will just wait for orientation, fix some stuff and will be READY TO ROLL!

- Started reading some my books.. good to have a headstart, can't fail or let this opportunity go to waste

- Quit Ragnarok Online

- Started playing Pokemon Black; now still stuck at the League, haven't played again.

- The CJ Corona Trial is now coming to an end..

Oh, the CJ Corona trial. Here is my statement on this one, I know many wouldn't agree with me, but hey, that's just my opinion. But I love a nice debate/commentary so here y'all go:

"Me, I think he is innocent. The only fault i can find in him is the fact on his foreign dollar deposits not being declared and that he walked out last Tuesday. But his failure to declared that FDs truly an impeachable offense?

THERE IS NO STRONG POINT that he was ever a corrupt guy. The prosecution failed to pinpoint that but you gotta admit they hit home hard on the point of the CJ's SALN. But the CJ managed to explain it naman, with feelings hehe."

Let me just add that yes, there are times I cringed when he was doing the dramatics, but then I can't blame someone who has been under stress and going through alot to be that emotional. Come on, cut the CJ some slack on the dramatics, we all went through tough times in our lives, didn't we?

Hoping for the best for the Chief Justice! And after this Impeachment Trial, LET US HOPE that the branches of the government would NOW RESOLVE TO WORK TOGETHER for the sake of our fellow countrymen.

Well, judgment day is on Tuesday. May God bless the Philippines.

Just my 2 cents

/no1!

Missile Launch

Image from ANC 24/7 FB Page.

IMO, we should at least be able to breathe easy because there is no reported radioactive material carried on board. Neither would it be used as a weapon of mass destruction (WMD). We shouldn't hype things up too much.

AFAIK, it is a satellite launch as well, right? So isn't it like America launching a satellite into space? However, what bothers me is that reports say it is a "disguised ballistic missile test". Indeed this would be bothersome for us who live along the path of the missile.

However, I would like to echo the sentiments of my friends, teachers, and most Filipinos: Yes, it is a test, there are indeed risks involved, but then why does it have to land in our sovereign territory?

I hope it would be intercepted by other countries before it reaches the Philippines. The only possible problem would be that that action might become a call for war. Let us hope that this is indeed JUST A SATELLITE LAUNCH and NOT A DISGUISED BALLISTIC MISSILE LAUNCH. News articles online say this would breach a UN Sanction on NoKor on Missile tests if I'm not mistaken.

Oh well, NoKor, you guys are really hard headed, ain't you?

Just my thoughts.

/no1!