A Dark Knight

From my childhood until today I have always admired the Dark Knight, the Batman. I am not an avid collector of figurines (I opened them up and played with them, thus decreasing their worth to less than a cent) but I did read the comics (though I stopped for sometime when I got introduced to the Marvel Universe) and watched all the movies (Batman and Robin to TDKR).

Who is the Batman? I have always pictured myself a hero: One with powers unmatchable and with an awesome costume. I admit too that I've become much engrossed in the Marvel Universe. But lately, probably due to nostalgia, I've been catching up with Batman (and DC comics in general). I admire the Dark Knight most because, though without powers, his mind works wonders. Consider him a modern day Sherlock Holmes with a fighting prowess of Sherlock himself + all the masters of martial arts. 

But that is beyond the point. Back in 2009 I read the Knightfall comics and the R.I.P Batman comics. It is unnerving to think of the sufferings the Batman endured and yet still manages to stand up and save the day. And recently (from May 2013 to today) I've started reading the Injustice: Gods among Us comic series based on the game with the same name. The Dark Knight has once again faced trials and tribulations, yet this doesn't break his spirit and morals, unlike that of Superman's (SPOILER ALERT).

Unbreakable. That is what the Dark Knight is. If I were to see myself as the Dark Knight, I should be unbreakable too, considering what I had to go through (refer to my most recent posts please). What I have lost will never be taken back, but I will bounce back. 

Damn it, it still hurts whenever I ponder how I was cheated (pun intended, EHEM) of my 2nd year just because of what I stood for. Then, when the truth was told to me, I felt peace. I confirmed from that truth what I always knew: that I never failed in my duties as a student and as a leader, that I did excel gloriously in all my subjects, that I was hit way low because of what I stood for. Too late to do anything.. My fault. Oh well. Like I said, I will just have to bounce back because what I lost can never be taken back. 

The news feed on FB haunts me as my friends rant about exams that I should also be ranting about. I consider this 1.5th year a blessing though. Probably need to rest myself for a greater fight ahead of me. And when I return, expect theatericalities. Just kidding.

I also hope to return as a leader. Technicalities may hinder that because I'm irregular, but let's hope not. This 1.5th year also defines me as a leader; I therefore must prove myself otherwise. This is more of a Captain America thing now, but I still believe in the dark knight; he can be a leader. I'm waiting for the day he will lead the Justice League and take over for Superman.

One last point: The Dark Knight defends others, and stands for his ideals. No trial should break one's morals apart; it should instead make one stronger. Yes, I am irregular, which I now feel is for a purpose, and lately I am beginning to see it, and that is why I believe that I should be..

" A Silent Guardian... A Watchful Protector... A Dark Knight"
 

Just my 2 cents

/no1!

Pain

What is pain? Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional… But whatever pain doesn’t kill you, will only make you stronger.

Life is a bitch. It sometimes puts you on top of the world, and then suddenly pulls you way below Tartarus. And sometimes, most people never make it out alive, because they have given up. But more often than not, we survive, and the cycle continues.

In my whole stay during this first year of Medical School in PLM, I have been shattered to pieces twice. Not just shattered, in actuality; also crushed and turned to dust. But in these two moments, I have slowly rebuilt myself and tried to always learn something from the experience in order to grow.

It certainly is difficult to pick yourself up after a fall. The pain is there, the hurt is there, your pride splattered with mud, shame and whatnot. It is so difficult to focus on matters that matter most, and to go on with everyday life. You tend to shun the people you need the most. You tend to try to do a lot of things to keep your mind off the pain.

In the end, you realize that you are not alone. There are people around you who truly are your friends. These people do not care whether you would get mad at them for what they would say; but instead they are there for you. These people uplift your spirit in every single thing they do, and you cannot help but put on a smile.

Smile, they say, because they are always there for you no matter what. And then I realized that I am not alone. They are the reason why I keep reminding myself that:

Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional; whatever pain doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger.

Lone Wolf 

Just my 2 cents

/no1!

2013

Goodbye 2012 and Welcome 2013!

It has been a great 2012. Yes, obviously there were ups and downs, as normally would happen in life. But hey, never forget to count your blessings ALWAYS. Life itself is already a huge blessing!

Some highlights of my year 2012:

• Graduation! Bio 2012, you homies would forever be part of my life.
• PLM-CM! That day when I learned I wasn't a first lister.. Yeah, it sucked real bad. I was down for quite some time. But it was a good lesson for me; sometimes you fall but you gotta stand up. You can't always go on being up there, you gotta experience some failures to learn to live life to the fullest.
• Like Dr. Wayne told Bruce: "Why do we fall? So we can learn to PICK OURSELVES UP" 

•  PLM-CM! Again, when I got accepted! Thank the Lord for his wonderful blessings. And because I was accepted to PLM, I met..
• PLM-CM 1D 2016. Yeap, my section. New classmates, but quickly we evolved into a family. Glad to have met these people as well. Forever grateful to them for truly we all got each others' backs. Without them, Medicine Life would have been kind of boring
• And of course, could I ever forget the alamat boys? Yeap, we're that awesome. And the DotA boys of course! 
• Obviously, special mention din dapat ang mga magagadang girls ng 1D. Oh yeah!

• NALCA Trading as I see it had a great year, thanks to the hard work and efforts of my parents. Inspiration, indeed, for me to persevere in Medicine (Cheesy I know but what the heck, that's the truth yo)
• My brods and sisses (MARSF/MUSSS). Never regretted my decision. Glad to be part of this awesome family as well. Another big reason why Med Life ain't boring or difficult or hell
• Special mention goes to my Batchmates! Love you Ladies. Yeah, I'm a sole thorn among a group of roses, but never felt pushed aside. Glad to be part of their 2012 as well :)

• Rest in Peace, Lola Lucy, you'll always be remembered :)
• Football! I finally got to play Football after quite a while. Glad to be part of PLM-CM's Men's Football team. We got a match this Jan. 12-13, so prepping up through workouts.. :))

I guess that's about it. Actually I probably have more to add, but obviously I'm kind of high at the moment, had lots to drink with my Dad. Oh yeah, that's one thing to add pala, its really cool to drink with your dad. True story!

Anyway, here's to an awesome 2013 for everyone! Stay safe and enjoy! Positive outlook for the future, yo!

/no1!

PLM-CM 1D 2016

So, after a boring DotA game vs. bots wherein my team lost because of noob bots, here I am again. I don't even have a title for this post... yet.

Hmm, I might just watch a movie before hitting the sack. The problem is, I do not know what to watch. Can't believe the start of the break is actually this boring when I should actually be looking forward to it... And yes, it is a mystery as to why it is this way.

Most probably because I felt bitin sa Christmas Party ng 1D! Seriously we should have actually gotten a better deal than Max's =)) haha! But hey, the point here is that that is how awesome the party went -- bitin ka and you're longing for more!

These folks I met in Med school are the ones I am going to spend the rest of my professional life with. Yes, I know, every 4-5 years we all post about meeting new people and saying that they're your best buddies, blahblahblah. There are lots of folks I cherish, namely Bio 2012, Kinse and of course, 1D.

I guess it's because friendship is weird. But you know, at this age, after many friendships built and destroyed along the way, you tend to actually cherish every person you meet as you grow. Obviously, as an adult, you begin to realize that friendship isn't just about fun and games and everything we thought of when we were kids. 

Friendship isn't about the material stuff. Friendship isn't even about just meeting new people and hanging out with them. After two decades on Earth you'd realize that it is actually more than that, though I admit that I probably have to spend more decades before finally realizing the true meaning of friendship. 

You can't tell me that, after 21 years, I should actually know this true meaning already. What is this true meaning you speak of, then? 21 years isn't enough.. Friendships surpass the boundaries of time and survive the trials of hell. YES, we are already at an age where we are already adults, but reckless ones. Admit it folks! 

Though pretty soon, when we all get married and settled down, we'll all have another point of view on friendship... And then as we grow old and near our deaths, a new point of view would arise. Life is weird, isn't it? Every single day it gives you different experiences. In the end, when you look back, you'd be thanking life for being a bitch most of the time.

And so yes indeed, 1D 2016, you guys rock. Whatever happens we all should stick together, stay strong. You see, trials will come and test us all. I believe we are all mature enough to actually stay sane and hold our heads up high against these trials. 

Yo, seriously though, I miss you guys. Til Jan 2, 2013, then!

/no1

Write Stuff

It's been a long while since I updated my blog. Anyway, I would not be ranting about anything politically related in this post! Let's just say this is more of a personal one. So, some small stuff first:

The start of the second semester has truly been eventful. I am thankful that my second shifting grades were quite good, and that at least I now have assurance that I can do it! Though, a problem is that the start of the third shifting is not really as good though, mejo I know I can do event better pa, so it means during this Christmas break I MUST indeed study well to prepare for the last 2 shiftings for my First Year. After this, summer break na! And then, second year na.. Second year in Medical School. For that I must do my best. Oh, wait, not only for myself but for everyone else. I promised to help those na mas nangangailangan pa saken, and I vow to fulfill that promise. Kapit tayo, mga kaibigan!

Oh yeah, I'm now a member of MARSF as well. I never regretted this decision of mine and will never do so. Proud to be part of a close knit family! Also, I'm damn proud of my batchmates. Haha! These sisters of mine never fail to make me smile everyday :) Mahal ko kayo batchmates! 

Moving on..

I like poetry. Oh, and whenever creativity hits me with a power over 9000, I write, be it a poem or a blog entry. My poetry is reserved for a special someone. Because I am not as artistic as most of my friends, I guess poetry is my way of expressing, like drawing is to an artist. I never really just pick out the words to rhyme; what happens is they just hit me in the head and I keep repeating it to myself until I find some pen and paper to write them down.

I guess most people think that poetry is easy to do so. Basta hanap ka lang ng nagrrhyme na words ok na yun. However, it is not that simple. In a stanza or two you gotta give the gist of what you really mean. Poetry is special, in a way that it somehow never really seems to talk "clearly" but when you read it carefully, you get the message in a flash. 

I admit; it is actually difficult. Sometimes, when I write a poem, I think it is already quite good, but after re-reading it, I tear the paper to pieces and start anew. :| yeah I know, perfectionist? I am not really a perfectionist but of course I do my best job in everything I do. Di naman kasi pwede basta-basta ka lang magsusulat, di ba? But hey, the reward comes when one simple poem can actually change the course of things. I don't know, it has happened before to me. It is weird, yes, but kinda cool, actually.

For now, I'll leave y'all with a line. This is my next work, I guess. Still building from scratch..

"The morning sun greeted me; I awoke with a start

I dreamed of you, and longing ached my heart"

Haha. Emo? Nope. Di pa nga tapos di ba? haha!

Just my 2 cents!

/no1

Decisions

I am having a hard time deciding what to do. It feels as if I entered a wormhole and am now nearer the D-day. It's not everyday life is always up. Sometimes its down, way down below, deep in Tartarus. You know that sinking feeling that something is wrong and you're not even sure what it is? The feeling of neglect compounded with uncertainties.

Looking on the bright side though, at least I, like everyone else, am still blessed. 

More on this later.

/no1

Of touching someone's heart and random thoughts

• When you never try, you'll never know. This line keeps on haunting me, to tell you the truth. I guess sometimes you can never escape your responsibility in letting her know how you truly feel. Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet. The question is, when am I biting the bullet? The best time to do anything is always now, but sometimes I prefer to do things my own way. I guess that's both my flaw and blessing, then. A radical stand and at the same time, stubbornness.

• When you lose something you can't replace.. damn. You'll never realize this until you have lost that particular something. But then comes acceptance and joy for what was lost.. because, most likely, what was lost has found happiness elsewhere.

• I'd rather live a thousand years of pain with you than a day of filled with hollow joy because that's how precious you are. It's too premature for anything right now, but we could try, couldn't we? Though, I can wait.

• I don't go straight to the point when it comes to you. How I feel about you, I break it up into little pieces, like a puzzle, and bit by bit I build it up for you to see. Slow, but I think it's worth it, because you are worth the time.

Random thoughts at 3:15am. Yesterday's feels flowed in once again. I haven't really written stuff like this, and I'm surprised at what I'm doing. Haha, it's probably.. i don't know. Let's see the answer in a few days..

/no1