Decisions

I am having a hard time deciding what to do. It feels as if I entered a wormhole and am now nearer the D-day. It's not everyday life is always up. Sometimes its down, way down below, deep in Tartarus. You know that sinking feeling that something is wrong and you're not even sure what it is? The feeling of neglect compounded with uncertainties.

Looking on the bright side though, at least I, like everyone else, am still blessed. 

More on this later.

/no1

Of touching someone's heart and random thoughts

• When you never try, you'll never know. This line keeps on haunting me, to tell you the truth. I guess sometimes you can never escape your responsibility in letting her know how you truly feel. Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet. The question is, when am I biting the bullet? The best time to do anything is always now, but sometimes I prefer to do things my own way. I guess that's both my flaw and blessing, then. A radical stand and at the same time, stubbornness.

• When you lose something you can't replace.. damn. You'll never realize this until you have lost that particular something. But then comes acceptance and joy for what was lost.. because, most likely, what was lost has found happiness elsewhere.

• I'd rather live a thousand years of pain with you than a day of filled with hollow joy because that's how precious you are. It's too premature for anything right now, but we could try, couldn't we? Though, I can wait.

• I don't go straight to the point when it comes to you. How I feel about you, I break it up into little pieces, like a puzzle, and bit by bit I build it up for you to see. Slow, but I think it's worth it, because you are worth the time.

Random thoughts at 3:15am. Yesterday's feels flowed in once again. I haven't really written stuff like this, and I'm surprised at what I'm doing. Haha, it's probably.. i don't know. Let's see the answer in a few days..

/no1