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Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Decisions

I am having a hard time deciding what to do. It feels as if I entered a wormhole and am now nearer the D-day. It's not everyday life is always up. Sometimes its down, way down below, deep in Tartarus. You know that sinking feeling that something is wrong and you're not even sure what it is? The feeling of neglect compounded with uncertainties.

Looking on the bright side though, at least I, like everyone else, am still blessed. 

More on this later.

/no1

Of touching someone's heart and random thoughts

  • When you never try, you'll never know. This line keeps on haunting me, to tell you the truth. I guess sometimes you can never escape your responsibility in letting her know how you truly feel. Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet. The question is, when am I biting the bullet? The best time to do anything is always now, but sometimes I prefer to do things my own way. I guess that's both my flaw and blessing, then. A radical stand and at the same time, stubbornness.
  • When you lose something you can't replace.. damn. You'll never realize this until you have lost that particular something. But then comes acceptance and joy for what was lost.. because, most likely, what was lost has found happiness elsewhere.
  • I'd rather live a thousand years of pain with you than a day of filled with hollow joy because that's how precious you are. It's too premature for anything right now, but we could try, couldn't we? Though, I can wait.
  • I don't go straight to the point when it comes to you. How I feel about you, I break it up into little pieces, like a puzzle, and bit by bit I build it up for you to see. Slow, but I think it's worth it, because you are worth the time.

Random thoughts at 3:15am. Yesterday's feels flowed in once again. I haven't really written stuff like this, and I'm surprised at what I'm doing. Haha, it's probably.. i don't know. Let's see the answer in a few days..

/no1

Monday, June 18, 2012

In 2050..

Inspired by HIMYM. 

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"Kids, back in the middle of 2012, I was having a great time with my life. Med school, friends, relationships, you name it, I can say I had it. But life isn't always as perfect as we all want it to be. And so, there was this one day when I received a message from my best friend. She'll be going to far away for her postgraduate studies. It's like I'm never going to see her again.

We met way back in 2008, when we were freshmen. Now, four years later and our friendship blossomed into something I believe everyone wishes to have. And it was only this time, when the thought of her leaving actually hit me quite hard, though I never really showed much emotion. Before, I always thought I would be strong enough to bid her goodbye, but now that we're here, would I really be? 

You see, it's not easy to say goodbye to someone you cherish and care for so much. It's going to be difficult and bittersweet. I never really expected this to happen so soon anyway. But hey, it's for her because it's a part of her dreams that would be coming true. I really am happy for her, though part of me is hidden in pain, not seen by anyone but myself.

But, what is "distance" when friendships and relationships can traverse them so easily? It makes a long mile look like a stone's throw from where we're all standing. :)"

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The post may have grammatical errors, my brain's kinda foggy and soupy right now, and I got lots to do, lots to focus on and lots to think about. Don't mind me.

/no1